Genetics… is this the cause… lets hope not!!
So lets see the next step after this life changing news, my world has remained pretty calm through out all of this leaving what feels like the rest of the worry on everyone else shoulders, which must and I’m sure is the craziest time for all around me, however somehow i remain in this weird concept of coolness does this last, surely other emotions creep in. Emotions begin to change when it comes to others for me, so we need to rule out a genetic link and get the whole family checked for any signs of bowel cancer, this has and remains one of the most stressful times for me worrying about everyone else and the possibility they may have to go through similar news that we have all just processed in our own weird ways, we may not agree with all the things that happened during this time but its an emotive subject leading people to behave in peculiar ways, thats how we must see it.
So off home we go and await the genetics appointment pretty swift on grand scheme of things, here it comes the amazing comment of dad to Tigg ‘ i brought my carer’ sorry about that Tigg sure that you are more than that and i have definitely see how wonderfully caring and supportive friend you have been to my dad through this, all his crazy plans and his day to day life. So we meet Amy the Genetic lady, lovely and very welcoming although my only memory really about the room and her was that it was incredibly hot in there, so i opt to sit on the floor to remain cold but also to create my own little cocoon I’m aware i do strange things but bear with me they make me, me… Crazy as certain people describe it 😉 i believe individual… normal people scare me :). So everyone gets booked in for a bum camera and we sit down to create a family tree with any history of every ailment my dad can name, thank god they’re only looking at the bowel.
Scary how someone i may never have known or even heard very little about could become the mystery link and explain the cause of this whole situation. So we leave with very little evidence that it is genetic, however everyone now has the wonderful delight of having their own colonoscopy – why not share the experience lol. So they all have letters and have to await there very own appointments to see the inside of their bowels.
Thankfully we now know there is no genetic link and all the family are clear and we begin to try and deal with what has been presented in front of all of us! For me this signals a massive sense of relief in a whirlwind situation as none of them have to go through this experience we are all facing together and hopefully never have to. A worrying few weeks over, the waiting game is and has become a game i don’t very much like participating in, the level of nerves and worry during these times spike and are at an all time high.